Dear God,
I thank You. This day has been a little dull and I don't like dull and boring days. I realize that I rather have dull and boring days sometimes. I try not to let my mind get the best of me. I overcame my idolatry with my crush/obsession at least for today. I am sorry that I let it get the best of me yesterday.
Images and thoughts keep coming back. I wonder sometimes why I have those thoughts, even about crushes and obsessions. I feel like I have degraded myself long enough with these crushes and obsessions. Sometimes I wish I could truly fall in love, get married, and have a family.
I want to live a normal life. I am 38 years old and sometimes I feel like I have nothing to show for it. I do realize that I need to be grateful. There are people who don't get to live, period. My issues are so minor compared to what many others go through. I have a computer and other things that I take for granted. I just am so grateful that I get a chance to walk daily because there are some people who cannot walk. There are others who have no feet and no legs.
I have a home to go to each and every day. There are those who have no home, much less a family. I have food to eat daily and I can calculate the amount of calories and carbs I eat per day. There are people who die of malnutrition because they have less than enough or rather, no food to eat.
I am just thankful. Help me to be mindful of those who are in need. Help me to be mindful of those who are less fortunate than I. I have You and others who love and respect me. I am sorry for not always be thankful for what I have. I rather have the dull, boring, groundhog days that I have than other days. I am prayerful and I can find something to do.
I thank You, Lord, that I am alive and that I have made it through another day.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Thoughts and healing
Dear God,
I still have these thoughts and the mechanism won't go away. I have a chemical imbalance in my brain and I wish these thoughts would go away. I wish I never had these thoughts.
I had thoughts about infidelity committed by wives. Why I never had these thoughts committed by husbands, I will never know. I believe that a woman like a man should be faithful and respectful to her husband. I don't like it when women step out on their husbands, especially if they are good, faithful, caring men. It is disgusting. It shows a lack of love, loyalty, and lack of character. I have such strong views on this and I guess that is why I have these thoughts about cheating. I realize how hypocritical they are because deep down, I have once believed that men are the main cheaters against women and that is all I remember seeing on mass media and reading about. So with the shortage of good men, why the women who cheat? That doesn't make sense to me.
I now believe that men and women who cheat are people who need Jesus. What they are doing is wrong. They know what they are doing is wrong. I don't know how adulterers truly feel about their spouses, but they are disrespecting them, their selves, and their marriages. It is a selfish, dishonest, and a cowardly act. I know why You, Lord, are against infidelity. I believe that it is why I have those thoughts about infidelity.
I think it is high time that they be exposed. I also ask for healing from these thoughts. I don't wish to feel that way anymore. I want for adulterers to find Jesus Christ. It is a sin, yes, but You died, Jesus, for adulterers and adulteresses. I don't want to know if a person cheated or not. I don't want to know if a cheater gets hurt because of their cheating. I am tired of the obsessions and the compulsions. I want the uncertainty. No one should get harmed or killed because of infidelity. It is not worth it. Forgive me, Lord Jesus, for the sin of infidelity against You that I have committed with the world. Heal me, Lord Jesus, of this sickness that I have. I want to just move on and move forward. I want to be healed and made whole. I thank You for healing me.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I still have these thoughts and the mechanism won't go away. I have a chemical imbalance in my brain and I wish these thoughts would go away. I wish I never had these thoughts.
I had thoughts about infidelity committed by wives. Why I never had these thoughts committed by husbands, I will never know. I believe that a woman like a man should be faithful and respectful to her husband. I don't like it when women step out on their husbands, especially if they are good, faithful, caring men. It is disgusting. It shows a lack of love, loyalty, and lack of character. I have such strong views on this and I guess that is why I have these thoughts about cheating. I realize how hypocritical they are because deep down, I have once believed that men are the main cheaters against women and that is all I remember seeing on mass media and reading about. So with the shortage of good men, why the women who cheat? That doesn't make sense to me.
I now believe that men and women who cheat are people who need Jesus. What they are doing is wrong. They know what they are doing is wrong. I don't know how adulterers truly feel about their spouses, but they are disrespecting them, their selves, and their marriages. It is a selfish, dishonest, and a cowardly act. I know why You, Lord, are against infidelity. I believe that it is why I have those thoughts about infidelity.
I think it is high time that they be exposed. I also ask for healing from these thoughts. I don't wish to feel that way anymore. I want for adulterers to find Jesus Christ. It is a sin, yes, but You died, Jesus, for adulterers and adulteresses. I don't want to know if a person cheated or not. I don't want to know if a cheater gets hurt because of their cheating. I am tired of the obsessions and the compulsions. I want the uncertainty. No one should get harmed or killed because of infidelity. It is not worth it. Forgive me, Lord Jesus, for the sin of infidelity against You that I have committed with the world. Heal me, Lord Jesus, of this sickness that I have. I want to just move on and move forward. I want to be healed and made whole. I thank You for healing me.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Monday, July 29, 2013
Good day
Dear God,
Today was a good day. I love that phrase and I love that song. But since it is not music that glorifies you, maybe I shouldn't.
I feel very good about this. I have learned to apply your word to my life. I have also learned to apply my meal plan to my grocery list. I wish I could make promises to You, but I am not good at making promises to You. I feel like a liar whenever I say I will never do it again. Forgive me of all of my sins.
Cleanse me of my unrighteous deeds. Make me a new creation in Christ. Thank You for saving me. I hope that I will live a life that glorifies You. I wish and want to live for You and serve You all the days of my life. I don't trust myself, but I put my trust in You.
I ask that I continue to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. Sometimes I feel like I live in an alternate universe. I don't always pay attention to what is around me sometimes, or at least that is how I feel. Thank You for always putting things in perspective for me. You are wonderful and majestic. I praise You, O Lord; I praise You.
Thank You,
Sincerly,
Letters to God
Today was a good day. I love that phrase and I love that song. But since it is not music that glorifies you, maybe I shouldn't.
I feel very good about this. I have learned to apply your word to my life. I have also learned to apply my meal plan to my grocery list. I wish I could make promises to You, but I am not good at making promises to You. I feel like a liar whenever I say I will never do it again. Forgive me of all of my sins.
Cleanse me of my unrighteous deeds. Make me a new creation in Christ. Thank You for saving me. I hope that I will live a life that glorifies You. I wish and want to live for You and serve You all the days of my life. I don't trust myself, but I put my trust in You.
I ask that I continue to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. Sometimes I feel like I live in an alternate universe. I don't always pay attention to what is around me sometimes, or at least that is how I feel. Thank You for always putting things in perspective for me. You are wonderful and majestic. I praise You, O Lord; I praise You.
Thank You,
Sincerly,
Letters to God
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Okay is how I am feeling
Dear God,
I am doing okay. I am a bit distracted however. I often get frazzled and concerned about what is going on in the world. I admit that I am in my own little world, however. I also admit that I get myself so concerned with the things of the world that I lose sight of the big picture sometimes.
These past few days have been about a renewal of my mind and it has been a miracle. I believe that little miracles happen everyday, but this miracle was huge. I was stressed out and lost. Now as I am writing this, I am no longer stressed out.
I am not frazzled or fed up. In fact, I am at peace. And that makes me smile.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
I am doing okay. I am a bit distracted however. I often get frazzled and concerned about what is going on in the world. I admit that I am in my own little world, however. I also admit that I get myself so concerned with the things of the world that I lose sight of the big picture sometimes.
These past few days have been about a renewal of my mind and it has been a miracle. I believe that little miracles happen everyday, but this miracle was huge. I was stressed out and lost. Now as I am writing this, I am no longer stressed out.
I am not frazzled or fed up. In fact, I am at peace. And that makes me smile.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Stress and anxiety
Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank You for saving me. I thank You for loving me. I thank You for light bulb moments. Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.
I ask that You would direct my paths, for I acknowledge You in all of my ways. I feel so much better about myself. I had to let the thoughts pass and deal with the anxiety that I have been dealing with. I have also have been dealing with stress.
I have been stressed out about my weight. I weighed over 300 lbs and I lost about 30 lbs. I feel great about that, though I realize that it was a source of stress because I lost weight so slowly. I feel like things are possible. Thank You for making all things possible for I didn't think that weight loss after a period of nine months and staying on this course for nine months would be possible.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
I thank You for saving me. I thank You for loving me. I thank You for light bulb moments. Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.
I ask that You would direct my paths, for I acknowledge You in all of my ways. I feel so much better about myself. I had to let the thoughts pass and deal with the anxiety that I have been dealing with. I have also have been dealing with stress.
I have been stressed out about my weight. I weighed over 300 lbs and I lost about 30 lbs. I feel great about that, though I realize that it was a source of stress because I lost weight so slowly. I feel like things are possible. Thank You for making all things possible for I didn't think that weight loss after a period of nine months and staying on this course for nine months would be possible.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
Friday, July 26, 2013
My journey
Dear God,
I am thankful for everything that You have done for me. My mindset has changed and I am more than motivated to lose weight. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome which makes it harder to lose weight than normal. I am concerned about being diabetic because I am a diabetic. I have been diabetic for nearly five years now. It has gotten easier to manage but at first it was embarassing to take the diabetic supplies home with me. I have been warned so to speak about being diabetic. I was overweight but I thought that I was healthy. I was much healthier back then because I weighed a lot less. I gained a lot of weight over the years leaving me feeling guilty and self-conscious about my weight, my health, and my appearance. My self esteem is not high yet I am a happier and wiser person than I have ever been since. I owe it all to You. My mind is clear and I look forward to continuing my journey. Life is so precious yet so short. I hope and plan to not take it for granted. Diabetes is a serious condition and I have taken it for granted. I am serious about diabetes now more than ever. I don't want any complications from diabetes. I want to be free from diabetes. Lord, heal me and set me free. Guide me and give me wisdom for I acknowledge You in all my ways. I ask for wisdom and for the direction of my paths.
Thank You,
Sincerely,
Letters to God
I am thankful for everything that You have done for me. My mindset has changed and I am more than motivated to lose weight. I have polycystic ovarian syndrome which makes it harder to lose weight than normal. I am concerned about being diabetic because I am a diabetic. I have been diabetic for nearly five years now. It has gotten easier to manage but at first it was embarassing to take the diabetic supplies home with me. I have been warned so to speak about being diabetic. I was overweight but I thought that I was healthy. I was much healthier back then because I weighed a lot less. I gained a lot of weight over the years leaving me feeling guilty and self-conscious about my weight, my health, and my appearance. My self esteem is not high yet I am a happier and wiser person than I have ever been since. I owe it all to You. My mind is clear and I look forward to continuing my journey. Life is so precious yet so short. I hope and plan to not take it for granted. Diabetes is a serious condition and I have taken it for granted. I am serious about diabetes now more than ever. I don't want any complications from diabetes. I want to be free from diabetes. Lord, heal me and set me free. Guide me and give me wisdom for I acknowledge You in all my ways. I ask for wisdom and for the direction of my paths.
Thank You,
Sincerely,
Letters to God
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Acknowledge
Dear God,
I acknowledge You in all of my ways. I ask that You would direct my paths and that You would give me guidance in all that I do. We all need guidance at some point in our lives. My guidance is right now. I had plans that did not come to fruition for whatever reason. What is your plan for my life? Guide me to that plan. Help me to continually renew my mind on a daily basis. I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind as it is written in Your Word, O Lord. Yesterday, you have provided a miracle for me and for that, I thank You.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
I acknowledge You in all of my ways. I ask that You would direct my paths and that You would give me guidance in all that I do. We all need guidance at some point in our lives. My guidance is right now. I had plans that did not come to fruition for whatever reason. What is your plan for my life? Guide me to that plan. Help me to continually renew my mind on a daily basis. I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind as it is written in Your Word, O Lord. Yesterday, you have provided a miracle for me and for that, I thank You.
Sincerely,
Letters to God
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