Friday, January 8, 2016

Importance without asking amiss

Lord,

I realize that I am putting too much pressure on myself.  I am listening to a song about stress and wanting to live for You.  Living like and being a believer hasn't always been easy however.  It is worth it.  I wouldn't have it any other way.  I thank You for saving me and for convicting me daily. I am not perfected but I thank You for peace of mind.  Forgive me for all of my sins including the sin of gluttony.  I really can't explain in detail why I engage in such mindless eating.  I ask that You would help me with my weight, which I am concerned about.  I am worried that I will never lose the weight nor keep it off.  I am over 300 pounds and have health problems.  I have been told that I need to take my health more seriously and they are right.  I need to be held accountable for how I take care of myself.  Help me to see myself for who I really am and what I need to do.

What seems small or big to me is even larger to You.  It took me a while to actually allow that to sink in.  I need some change period, including when it comes to my spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical health. I get out of control and I don't know how to stop.  Lord, give me wisdom and control of my habits.  Give me and guide my understanding of what is most important in life.  I realize that I may be asking amiss and I am truly sorry.  I realize also that my prayers can be selfish.  Without asking amiss, I ask for forgiveness of sins, peace of mind, wisdom, and accountability.  I live in a world that is larger than myself and I ask that You would help me to see that my view of myself, You, and the world could be what is holding me back.  Life is about more than food and drink.  Forgive me, Father, for I have been living as if I had little faith especially in You.  I ask for conviction from the Holy Spirit, for I thank You, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, for giving me peace of mind and again, for forgiveness.

I have grown tired of the same thing over and over again.  I would like to be able and strong enough to make different, and better choices as You show me how.  I ask that You would show me how. I realize that I am not of this world despite my living in it.  Help me to die to self daily, for I realize that I have not done so.  I also ask for wise counsel from You and for those who have wisdom.  Bless those who give counsel without providing ungodly counsel and an ungodly attitude in mind.  I have lived according to the flesh and I ask for forgiveness.  I repent of my sins.  I also ask that You would teach me that there are things that are more important to You than a change in my physical self, but also a change in my emotions, health, understanding, and spiritual matters.  Help me to see this world, and I give You thanks for thus far answering my prayers.  I give You praise for giving me clarity on things that are most important to me.

Thank You, In Jesus' name,


Amen

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Telling the truth...

Father,

I ask that You would further convict me as I know You are there for me.  Thank You, for I am grateful for the peace of mind that I have.  I confess that I am a glutton and that I eat too much. I need to be held accountable for not only my eating habits, but also how I live my life.  Help me to keep my mind stayed on You, Lord.  I have been too comfortable and I am doing things that I have a hard time overcoming.  Lord, teach me Your ways and forgive me for all of my sins, including gluttony.  There are things that are difficult for me to do or to confess.  I can no longer take these things for granted for some of those things are embarrassing.  There are things that I have trouble doing that most other people take for granted.  They live life as if it is easier for them.  I don't know how they live, however.  I don't know their entire lives but they are thinner and by the looks of things, they seem to be less conscious about their size.  I may be wrong on this for maybe everyone has something they would like to change despite the fact that they may have shiny hair, a pretty face, or an enviable body.

I often don't see myself as beautiful physically because I am overweight.  Even if someone tells me about my looks and my personality, I have difficulty believing it.  I couldn't get a date for I was the overweight nerd who was made fun of.  That has been stuck to me.  I was never the girlfriend or the wife.  I have had crushes on other people and what has happened to me has been that is why. Father, I want to make changes not only in my life, but also in myself and how I see things.  I know that I am a sinner who is imperfect just like everyone else.  I want to see myself as a beautiful creation who is beautiful both inside and out.  Right now, I just don't have the confidence to see myself as beautiful, which has been a struggle.

I would like to know that I need to have a different relationship not only with food, but with the world at large, You, and myself.  I fail to continually have that relationship despite my prayer. Despite my prayer, I ask that You would produce a change in me.  I don't want to have this all-or-nothing mindset anymore.  I want and need to lose weight.  That has been my desire but I never saw weight loss in that way.  I have this goal and I am afraid that with the way I am currently eating, I will never reach this goal.  I am not sure that the route and the plan that I am going in is the one that You want for me.  If not, what do I need to do to go a different route and follow Your plan?  Cleanse me of my fear and my wrong relationship about food.  I would like to start over.  Without asking amiss, I thank You for listening to me.  Give me the faith that I so need to overcome all of the things that need to be overcome.  Also, I ask that You would make me even wiser when it comes to my health and I ask for guidance in how I life my entire life.  Give me a sense of direction.  Help me to see things as You have me to see them.  I give You thanks that You have allowed me to share and express my feelings through this petition.  Thank You.

In Jesus' name,


Amen

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Grateful for conviction

Lord Jesus,

I thank You that through the leading of the Holy Spirit that I know that I have a problem.  The problem is gluttony.  I have committed this sin today and for most of my life.  You have taught me that I can be an over comer in this world.  I thank You for convicting me and continue to do so.

In Your name,


Amen

Monday, January 4, 2016

Lord, I ask that You for help

Lord Jesus,

Forgive me for all of my sins.  I thank You for having the power to forgive sins.  Thank You also for saving me and for the gift of the Holy Spirit.  I have been writing about my plan to lose weight. However, I admit that I have done nothing with that yet.  My eating is out of control.  I admit that. I also admit that I need help losing weight.  I am no long anxious or fearful.  I thank You that my faith is strong.  I am anxious for nothing.  I give You thanks that my anxiety and fear are gone.  I have no doubt that my prayer has been or will be answered.  Thank You.  I need to lose weight, but I don't know where to begin.  I have been nauseated today.  I ask for healing and wholeness, Lord.  My eating is more of a need to eat chocolate and such, but it isn't a binge.  However my eating could be considered a bit out of control.  I overeat to stay awake.  I eat sometimes due to hunger.  I also overeat because, I have the opportunity to do so.  I know that I have bad habits such as eating unhealthy and not eating in moderation.  I know I need to change.  My mindset concerning food and drink now is about satisfying the flesh.  How do I satisfy You and die to self concerning this issue? I know that I am in need of help.  I ask for the tools that I need to lose weight and thus not satisfying the flesh but to grow spiritually.  Lord Jesus, I ask for Your help and for Your guidance and Your conviction in this matter.  I give You thanks and praise in Your name, Jesus.  Amen.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Overcoming these things...

Heavenly Father,

Forgive me for my anxiety.  Your word says to be anxious for nothing.  I need help overcoming my anxiety and my fear.  I ask for clarity in this situation and for focus so that I can be healthier and made whole.  My anxiety and fear are great because I want to lose weight, but I ask for the wisdom to carry it out.  You convicted me about my relationship with food and I would like to hold on to that knowledge.  I would like to join Weight Watchers or some other weight loss program whatever the cost.  However, I need provision, for I may not be able to afford some of these programs out there, no matter how effective they are.  The problem is, I am not sure if I am ready to lose weight.

My plan is to weigh 120 pounds, which is more than 60% of my body weight.  I have thought about weighing that much or that little before.  I have not been self-conscious enough about what I eat, nor have I done much effective exercise in a while.  The truth is outside of the fear and the anxiety, it hasn't sunk in.  I ask for a change not only in me, but also my mindset.  Help me to be transformed by the renewing of my mind, in every area of my life.  Lately You have convicted me about what I watch online and being more understanding of my relationship to food relative to what is going on in the world.  Lord, I am confused though I should not be.  I feel like I will never be ready and that I will never, ever change my mindset and thus, reach my goals.

I ask that You would speak to me, as well as my heart and soul.  Father, forgive me for all of my sins, for I while I am Yours, I still sin.  I confess that anxiety and fear are two of my biggest issues.  I feel like I am asking amiss, yet I feel like what seems small in this world is big to You.  That is what my faith is being built on.  I call on You and Your name, and I ask for forgiveness if I am asking amiss.  I know that You are not the Lord of worry, fear, anxiety, and confusion, for I am confused.  Thankfully, I have overcome doubt but I am truly sorry and I repent of my worries and cares.  Take my burdens away and lighten my load, for I am to learn from You and of You.  Help me to see what is most important when it comes to this and all matters. Increase my faith in all matters and I ask that You would lift my burdens, because Your yoke is easy even though I am not of the world,

I will still have problems.  I have many reasons why I need to lose weight and be ready to lose weight, Father, and that is why I am writing this to You.  All I ask is conviction, change, and an answer.  I need truth, Your truth.  Let me know that all is okay and all will be okay.  That is my petition, and I give You thanks for allowing me to present this request to You.  I praise You that You are the Lord who answers prayer and who will help me to overcome.  You are a God of understanding and You give grace to help in time of need, and I truly need Your help.  Give me guidance and healing in this and all situations.  In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

I know this.

Father,

My diet is poor.  That is obvious.  However, I know I need to lose weight.  That too is obvious.  I don't know why I need to lose weight.  I realize that I need to lose weight, but it hasn't registered. May it finally register in terms of why I need to lose weight.  I ask for help because I know I need help.  I realize that I have asked amiss, but I don't wish to take food and eating for granted.  Life is too short to worry about anything much less food and drink.  I thank You that I  have the food and drink needed to sustain me throughout the day.  I also ask for wisdom and guidance.  I have no idea what to do or how to lose weight.  I am not sure that I can afford Weight Watchers or any other program.  I need to be held accountable, but I am still waiting for an answer from You.  I cast everything over to You.  Help me to see that I am living on Your timetable and not mine, so I ask that You would grant me patience.  Make me wise about my health and health in general, so I ask for wisdom.  I want to be healthy and made whole, so I also ask for healing as well.  Lord, forgive me for having little faith as well as all of my other sins.  I also ask for financial help in this regard, if that is needed.  I need help in losing weight, I know this, but I am concerned that I am not patient enough to lose weight, so I also ask You for patience.  Lord, I ask that You would teach me Your ways not only concerning my health, but also in every area of Your life.  I give You praise, O Holy One, for I thank You for listening to me.  I believe in my heart that with You, all things are possible.  I pray this in faith.  In Jesus' name, Amen.

Friday, January 1, 2016

I have a goal in mind.

Heavenly Father,

I ask You for peace of mind.  You cannot give me that unless I ask.  You can't help me if I don't have enough faith to ask You for help.  I wonder if the phrase "You help those who help themselves" is a godly phrase.  Word for word, I know it isn't in the Bible, but is there something godly about that sentence?  I want and need help.  I want to lose weight, especially now.  I have put off losing weight until after the holidays.  Now I have no idea what to do because I have not lost weight during the holidays.  I gained weight and I want to take losing weight more seriously than ever.  I realize I have not lately and I don't want to gain anymore weight.  I have a Body Mass Index of about 60 and I would like to have it lowered, much, much lowered.  I want to have a healthy body weight but I also have a body type in mind.

I am just writing to You how I am feeling at the moment about my weight. I have an undertaking in mind that will be great, but I want to be healthy.  I realize that it will take a while and I don't want to jinx myself.  Without asking amiss, I ask for peace of mind and freedom from fear, doubt, worry, and anxiety.  Forgive me for all of my sins and for holding all of those things in and holding on to those things.  Neither of them have been productive.  In fact, I believe that is why I feel like I have failed.  I want to lose most of my body weight, but it is a healthy weight.  That is my set plan for now.  I also ask for guidance as to which plan I should choose.  Furthermore, I also ask that You would help me to focus on the task at hand and to grant me the patience that I need to go on and continue this journey.  Thank You for giving me the opportunity to present this request and I praise You for the wisdom that You have given me daily as I further ask for more wisdom.

In Jesus' name,


Amen