Saturday, August 8, 2015

Jesus is my Center

Father,

I heard that all I have to do is pray to You in the name of Jesus.  You will supply my every need.  Right now, I need to concentrate and be more centered.  I am at a place where I want to give up.  I certainly wish to give up in terms of my weight.  I am lost and lack a center.  I need You be my Center.  Grant me the wisdom to accept the things that I cannot change.  Help me to know that the difference between acceptance and wisdom.  I have just come to realize that the serenity prayer is the story of my life.  There are things that I wish to remember and things that I wish to forget.  Right now, I just don't care anymore.  I am in a dangerous place and right now, I want to give up, but I know it is not a good thing.  I am not consistent when it comes to improving myself, but now I want to.  Give me the strength, wisdom, and motivation that I am in need of right now.  Remind me of who I am and why I am on this journey in the first.  I also ask for a renewal of my mind and a change of my mindset.  Help me to see that journeys equal lives.  Open my eyes, Lord,

In Jesus name,


Amen

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Pressure on me

Lord,

I just love this song.  It is called "Pressure" by Jonathan McReynolds.  This young man is quite good.  I was reminded that this is something that I can relate to. Lord, how do I stay consistent?  I am a person who is in constant need of guidance.  There is some pressure that I have been going through over the years and I am not sure if I can deal with that anymore. There are things that I want to do.  The things that I want the most are good health, independence, and last but certainly not least, Christian service.  I have made some poor decisions lately and it has gotten worse.  It is as if no matter what I say or do, nothing seems to work, no matter how consistent I get.  Lord, I have no clue what more to do or to pray.  Grant me the wisdom that I so need right now.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Light bulb moments

Lord,

Thank You for giving me the light bulb moments that I so need.  I ask that You would remind me that these moments are there for a reason. I admit that I see things from a perspective that makes the simple too hard. I am so detailed and my mind is so frazzled at times that I have a hard time it seems to have the know how when it comes to the simplest things.  I feel like I am all alone.  I was advised to be consistent, and that is what I am going to be.  Consistent is a good thing if not vital for me at least. I look forward to the rest of my days on this planet, especially with this consistency thing.

Thank You,

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Monday, August 3, 2015

Honesty and sincerity

Lord,

I enjoy praying to You.  I feel that I can finally get things off of my chest.  I am not sure, but honesty is the best way to pray.  That is something that I have learned for a long time.  The more I pray, the greater my faith.  The more that I read Your word, the greater my understanding of the truth.  No matter I am going through at the moment, I know that You and Your word are the answer.  Thank You, Lord.

Sincerely,


Letters to God

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Just something to express

Lord,

I wish I could just let it all go.  I can't.  I just can't.  I am not one of these people who has that strength and that "courage" I guess.  I am tired of the accusations, the yelling, and the hurt feelings.  It is as if at times, I don't count.  That was how I felt and still feel today.  I am not sure what to say about this or to handle the situation.  That is the problem.  I don't know how to handle a situation.  Today was just a bad day all the way around.  I thank You for hearing me.

In Your name, Amen.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

OCD and how I spend my time

Lord Jesus,

Today was a day that I am just bored.  I have realized that I am in need to agree to my obsessive thoughts.   I hate having to fight or agree with the OCD, even with fictional thoughts.  I know I feel better, but I also realize that it takes enough strength to overcome these thoughts.  If only I had enough strength to overcome these thoughts.  I don't like to have these thoughts.  I have overcome some of these thoughts.  Help me and give the strength and know how when it comes to facing my fears.  I need Your guidance when it also comes to avoidance.  How can I overcome avoidance in all situations?  That has even been more difficult.  I am now afraid and I don't know what to do.  I feel drawn to those movies or those television shows or that music video.  I am drawn to them like a moth to a flame and that makes me anxious.  It is as if I don't know what to do.  I feel this way because I thought that is the way to cope but is it?  Should I avoid it further? I am scared.  Help me for I am scared.  What do I need to do?  How do I overcome this?  I ask that You would give me clarity in this situation.  I need no one else but You.  Other people's opinions are only temporary help.  I need You.  Your word says be anxious for nothing but I cannot help but worry or being anxious. Give me the wisdom and peace of mind that I so desperately need right now.  Help me.  I need Your help.  I thank You that You are the Answer to my prayers.

In Your name, Jesus,


Amen